rainy day

it's cold outside. but i feel warm inside. i'm having mixed feelings lately. just like the weather. hot. cold. happy. confused. blessed. dissatisfied. flattered. jealous. and sometimes even lost. i don't know exactly why and what i'm thinking about. maybe it's because of the period of the 'month' or because i spent too much time at home. but i feel so vulnerable and fragile. i get offended easily by the things said. sigh. now i feel bad cos somehow it's affecting people that i love. sorry ya for making it difficult. i just realized that it is hard for me to accept things although i already knew about it and willing to accept it. and i'm sorry if i'm asking too much. i really don't know how to express it more. maybe my effort is not enough. need to try harder! and have to look things more calmly =)

but thank you for staying beside me and accepting me.. thanks for all your love and concern.. *you know who you are* and i really appreciate everything..i am grateful for what i have now =)


once again from the bottom of my heart, i am sorry...


xoxo